Sunday, November 21, 2010

A Ball of Nerves

Dearest Baby,

Well, it's only a few more days until we find out if you're a little boy or a little girl (Lord willing), and would you believe that I'm actually nervous?

Of course, I am impatient, too, but that's to be expected. And, quite frankly, today was the first day I became impatient, so I'm just glad that I haven't been counting down days for a month and will only be counting down the time for a few days, instead.

But I'm actually nervous, which is something I really didn't expect.

What if you're not a boy?

What if you're not a girl?

My stomach turns with both of these thoughts. I get nervous just thinking that you may not be a girl. I get nervous just thinking that you may not be a boy.

I suppose it's a good thing that I actually dread you not being either gender - that means that whether you're a boy or a girl, I'll be beyond thrilled, because I honestly can't decide which gender I would prefer.

Every time I think, "I hope it's a boy," the very next thought is "But a girl would be so wonderful." And vice versa.

I can hardly wait until Wednesday.

I'm hoping and praying that we'll find out your gender; if we don't, I will be so impatient to have another ultrasound!

So, here's hoping you reveal yourself to us :)

I love you so, so much, sweet Baby.

I can't wait to be able to call you "my daughter" or "my son." I get butterflies just thinking about it.

All My Heart,


1 comment:

  1. I am just so excited for your upcoming ultrasound! I felt the same way as you - boy or girl - no preference!

    Just seeing your baby again will be so wonderful... but when they tell you boy or girl... I don't know how to say it. It's one of the best feelings in the world, and you'll never forget that moment the rest of your life.

    If you're anything like me - once they tell you the gender, everything falls into place and seems perfect. I really didn't have a feeling one way or another about the gender of our newest baby, but when they announced he was a little boy... it seemed like it was always meant to be that way. And I couldn't imagine anything else now.

    I'm willing to bet you will feel the same way.

    I know you and your husband must be so excited! I'm already looking forward to your update!!