Calm Down, Deep Breaths

Dear Sweet Baby,

It has been one heck of a week.

Very, very tiring.

Very, very long.

Very, very draining.

None of this has anything to do with you, Little Shrimp; it's just other life suckiness.

It's just been a rough week.

I will say this, the beginning of the week was much worse. Thursday and Friday got better. Hopefully today will continue that trend.

I don't really have much to say; I feel like I just need to calm down and take some deep breaths.

So, instead, I'm going to share with you some lyrics that are particularly meaningful to me right now with all that I've gone through this week.

Here's hoping you don't read this until you're in your teens or so, so that you won't be shocked by my use of the word "suckiness" (which I'm not going to say around you when you're a little one, because I don't want my three-year-old to be walking around saying "suck" - probably because that's how my parents raised me) or with some of the lyrics in said melody.

Details in the Fabric - Jason Mraz:

Calm down

Deep Breaths

And get yourself dressed

Instead

Of running around

And pulling all your threads

And

Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it

If it's a broken arm, then brace it

If it's a broken heart, then face it

And hold your own

Know your name

And go your own way

Hold your own

Know your name

And go your own way

And everything

Will be fine

Hang on

Help is on the way

Stay strong

I'm doing everything

Hold your own

Know your name

And go your own way

Hold your own

Know your name

And go your own way

And everything

Everything

Will be fine

Everything

Are the details in the fabric,

Are the things that make you panic,

Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow?

Hell, no reason, go on and scream

If you're shocked it's just the fault of faulty manufacturing

Everything

Will be fine

Everything

In no time at all

Everything

Hold your own

Know your name

And go your own way

Hold your own

(Are the details in the fabric,)

Know your name

(Are the things that make you panic,)

And go your own way

(Are your thoughts results of static cling?)

Hold your own

(Are the details in the fabric,)

Know your name

(Are the things that make you panic,)

And go your own way

(Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?)

Hold your own

(Are the things that make you blow?)

Know your name

(Hell, no reason, go on and scream)

And go your own way

(If you're shocked it's just the fault of faulty manufacturing)

Everything

Will be fine

Everything

In no time at all

Hearts will hold

I love this song. The lyrics are so meaningful to me.

Someday you'll learn that I'm what I call a "word person." Words are very, very important to me. I will remember something nice that someone says to me for years and years; I'll also remember the not-so-nice stuff for years and years. It's my love of words, my love of language, my love of communication and self-expression, that make lyrics and literature so particularly meaningful to me.

I hope this song can be meaningful to you someday, too. Everything will be fine, Baby.

I love you so, so much.

Love,

Momma

ps...On Tuesday, we're leaving bright and early to go visit my mom (your grandma) in Nevada, so it'll probably be a little while before you hear from me again. Don't take it personally - your dad and I are using this trip as a way to spend some quality time together, away from all the craziness of life and prenatal appointments and homework and work, so I'll be spending next week just pouring into your dad and our relationship. You know how parents sometimes need to have dates away together without their children? Well, obviously you'll physically be with us, but we're taking that same sort of mindset with us on our trip...we need some "us" time. Love you, Baby!